Like a knife that was stabbed into my heart
the words you left that kept me wondering
distance made by choice and kept us apart
words of hatred and anger unrevealing

The mask of sorrow that kept me alive
joy and laughter that once was in my heart
through years have passed and I’ve strived
if only I knew this pain from the start

To save or to let go to think of this emotion
not a person living in this life can spare me
questioning to my heart all the reasons
the thing that made me feel this uncanny

From this day forward I must learn to fight
and slay the cause of the pain within my heart
when I pass through darkness and see the light
would somehow expect tomorrow to be bright.

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At the corner of the sky, I see a familiar face
A journey across the land I’m about to race
Something that never happened before
Something I wanted to seek for more

Strengthened by fruitful words to guide
The love I always longed for deep inside
I came across to being so close too
Like I know nothing else but you

I begin to see something deep
That no one ever has seen before
This unexplainable feeling I keep,
I know there might be something more

When I saw your picture in a blurry
That familiar face came clear to me
It may be a dream wake me up to reality
But that face was the face in my thoughts see

I get confused and question things
Is this true or my mind just made this up?
Because the way I see these feelings
Is growing stronger even if I want it to stop

When I saw that face and knew straight away
You’re part of my past in thousand rays
I could just imagine the sweet embrace
I could have way way back in days

And then I remember that words, that glance
Wanting to give it a try just one last chance
But just as I’ve known aid me up this broken heart
Because it’s all in the past, now we’re apart.

I just wish to feel your presence again
Even if this time, it will be just as a friend
Because the way I figured all out
You’ve been my past my all about
Back in days…

I’m in the middle of darkness and light
One step sideways and I’ll be on either side
It’s my choice to make and I’ll make a bet
It’s hard to see what more should I get

I’ve been convincing myself about these things
That everything will turn out to be alright
But what happened to me I felt like loosing
Don’t know which way to go I’m out of sight

I’d seek for aid and try to cry for help
Heart is aching but my tears had dried
And now I’m lost and I find no reason
To continue this journey to make it home

Read between the lines and it’s getting closer
I have to choose but if only time runs slower
I know I have gained some and lost some now
When I come back will it be the same somehow

I want change to take place and I want it now
With wanting these things I will have to wait
I want to belief that things will turn out fine
But either way I have now crossed that line

People misunderstood me and now I am lost
I felt like I’m traveling in this world alone
Stuck in between darkness and light
Oh, how will I get to the other side of life?

My world has changed and my heart has melted
Didn’t like this and never has I expected
I came across to wandering and crying
About the pains it took for this denying

You came into my life and made me happy
You made me laugh and uplifted me
You gave me courage one step closer to you
And opened me up to something I never knew

We talked a lot about your life and mine
It is like the friendship has the strongest bond
And every words uttered was true having
Those words in my heart to live by believing

Having you to talk to in my loneliest days
I have appreciated it and I’m amazed
Because of that I want you to know
Forever I wouldn’t let this feeling go

I’ll find a way for us to get closer again
For you to know me much better my friend
And when that time comes, I’ll say
That forever by your side I’ll stay.

I was around feeling how uncanny it is to be a fan
To fall in love with the feeling of idolizing someone
Wishing how both worlds would unite and thus,
Being so close to each other like it can never last

You talk to each other and feel about how great it was
To know and to listen to your stories and your past
And wishing that time would just trick
The hands of faith you wish to seek

Suddenly you figure out that what you wanted to be
Is to be in that same place saying “It could be me”
You get inspired and do best you can
To be in that position you call akin to friend

And when the admiration grows it makes you happy
And you feel in love with what the friend has to be
And suddenly realize that idolizing someone
Just makes you feel contented being the number 1 fan.

Unrevealing the secrets of my lucky heart
Inspired by words of wisdom and courage
To move forward and to know how to start
Surely a battle will surpass a widely rage

And when faced by the enemy stronger and faster
Must trick the time and the years of learning
Quickly the skills of the strongest soldier
The wise and strong should carry on fighting

And when the battle has ended and nothing has gained
You look back for traces of how it all started
And when you perceive the outcome of what was made
The heart was shattered to pieces like all was darkened by hatred

And when you suddenly realize what you have lost
It’s too late to look back and start all over again
And the only thing that could break the cost,
Is when you look behind you and see a loyal friend.

It started out with just fooling around
My bell rang and the other responded sound
We’ve become friends and liked the feeling
The craze of you and me just talking

We’ve talked a lot of things and stuff
About how the world has been on us
Never a moment I haven’t laughed
With the stories shared and the trust

I said it before I can’t wait to see
The place of the friend I wanted to be
But the things that we’ve talked about
Is left in the air and simply was rubbed out

I know it’s a loss not to have you as a friend
And I’m sorry for all the things I did
I fooled you once and then again and again
Realizing a friend like you is what I need

I take the blame of what had happened
It’s hard to loose it and I want you to know
That you had been my treasured friend
And it hurts but I will just have to let this go

Knowing that I have lost you, I regret
That for now I’ll just have to say goodbye
But it doesn’t mean I’ll have to forget
I hope things will go well as time pass by

And now we’re back like strangers again
And I hate this feeling loosing a friend
But just because you don’t feel this too
Doesn’t mean I’ll have to say goodbye to you.

Just brace myself and trust and hope for the day
For what is expected that never happened
And that just one day I’ll find a place to stay
Closer to you and become a better friend.

The friendship started way back when
And loved the feeling to have those friends
One mistake and it is all taken for granted
Humiliated inside and kept it silent

The heart was hurt and came for revenge
These friends I have to test its edge
I did everything to make them feel
To be sorry and expecting to heal

But another way came around
To noise from another sound
One thing came to another
Leaving her behind, hurting there

I did not expect to feel this way
I treasured you friends I can say
But I just lost the game I started
You win now, if that’s what you wanted

I play you around in my hands
Hoping to ease all those rants
And day by day I begin to see
I realize now that the joke is on me

I would just want to plant a tree
But the seed went wrong it’s hunting me
I know I made a mistake cut it now
And no words must be spoken I feel low

It’s weird to be sorry and tell you this
But friend I realized something indeed
Your importance is what matters to me
But it’s too late now for an apology

I planted the bomb in my hands
And it is now bursting in silence
It is so hard to loose these friends
Wishing for them back again hence,

A second chance to be your friend….

It seems to me that you’re a friend I wanted to know
and when I’m feeling down you always come around
and when the world keeps turning round
a friend in you I found

i have known you for a short span of time
but it seems I’ve known you long ago
and what our world apart maybe
a friend in you I see

I wanted to know you more and more
And keep the bond between us
And when one word would open a door
We clicked no questions asked

As time have passed meeting you
Is what I wanted to do
And when my friend time will come
In me you’ll find a home

But dreams may have passed by so fast
And I couldn’t imagine how
All the amity didn’t last
I’m missing you so much now.

The night is dark and the day is young
I want to feel the sun under my skin
The hot sunlight goes through my veins
Directly steaming my mind in the air

I want to feel the warmth of the clouds
Slowly glittering in the heavens above
I want lay down and rest for a while
Because my brains has traveled a thousand mile

I want to lighten up and rest from thinking
To heal the wounds my mind is screaming
Justify the heat of the sun under my skin
That all is worthwhile but this world is mean

I want to follow the light to where it shines
When sunlight has stopped and night will come
And when wonders stopped me from traveling
Is the time I’d gladly comeback to my dearest home

And when the stars are shinning in the sky
I will see how light the days passed by
And looking back through my pains and tears
The path I’ve traveled is worth those years.